In Case You Missed It

I understand there are necessary steps that need to be made in order to protect ourselves or our children from others who we see as unhealthy or even dangerous. But many over react to many of life’s messy situations. Maybe you are not emotionally or mentally capable to care for those who need the most care. Passing them on to others who are more equipped is a wise decision. But maybe God put them in YOUR life for a reason! Maybe YOU are supposed to grow from this experience. Often those who are the most difficult people in our lives are the ones God placed there to teach us to love.
Love is patient, love is kind, it does not envy, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs….it bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things! (1 Cor. 13)
Stop taking the people in your life for granted! Get the help you need to grow, heal, and get stronger so that you can be strong for others!

The Burden of Strength


I’ve heard people say when you die, your life flashes before your eyes. I’ve often wondered what sort of show that’d be. A photo montage of all your life’s highlights? Or perhaps a video playback of the best moments you’ve experienced? To be honest, I’m uncertain I want to rehash many of my life’s defining moments.

My sister moved out of our home when I was young. Six or seven years old, somewhere around there. My brother and I weren’t given much explanation at the time as to why it was happening, we just remember bits of it all. Snippets of events like the time my sister got angry and kicked a hole in the wall, or when my mother would call the cops because the situation escalated too far.

     I remember waking up late one night with an officer walking down the hall. His keys were…

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The years go by.

I feel  my life slipping away.

I look back.

I ask myself, What have I done?, What have I accomplished?, What did I live for?, Is there still time?, What can be done?  

One, ten, twenty – it’s gone!  

I can hardly make it through the day!

Next year came and went.

What will happen to me when I’m old and gray?

When will God take me away?

How much longer do I have to stay?

Where will I go and what will He say?

Did I live life well?

Did I do it right?

What was His plan?

Can I try it again?

What will I say?

I have no excuse.

I’m lost in the rat race!

Time is not my friend.

I’m numb to the pain of life.

It hurts so bad.

Why does living have to be so sad?

Maybe I am not alive!

Maybe this whole life is just some sick, twisted game inside my head!

That is why I feel so dead!

The Twelve “tions” of Resolutions

After some consideration of what my resolutions should be for 2017 I discovered there are twelve “tions” that should not be shunned! Hehe! So I will share them with you!

#1) Meditation: I do not recommend meditation in the sense of repeating some mantra or using any type of mystical/metaphysical middle eastern (philosophically) meditation. As a Christion, Christian, scripturally, it is scriptural! I use meditation biblically to achieve a calm spirit, to get before the Lord in humility and discipline myself, to obey his command, to “Be still and know that I am God” (Psalm 46:10)

#2) Expectation: This is twofold. I must let go of my unhealthy ideas and set realistic goals. Letting go of the expectation that I need to lose a hundred pounds by next week is healthy for my mind and body. Setting realistic expectations by setting smaller goals and taking baby steps to achieve those goals will keep me motivated and focused on realistic accomplishments. But first I must believe it is possible! As Jesus said, you are never going to move that mountain until you believe (Mark 11:23). Hey, that gives me an idea! Fat, be removed from my body and be thrown to the feet of Jesus! Hey, it just might work!

#3) Prioritization: While some things are more important to me than others I find myself spending time, money and energy on what is not as important. For instance, while paying bills is essential, tithing is even more essential. He wants us to trust Him in this. He knows our needs and He always takes care of us, if we put Him first (Malachi 3:10). The same is true with our time. While spending time with our children is a necessity, spending time with God is even more important. I love the analogy of the oxygen mask in the airplane, in case of an emergency, the parent must put on their oxygen mask before putting a mask on their child.They will be of no use to help their child if they pass out while putting their child’s on first. When we spend time with God we are actually making ourselves the priority.

#4) Specification: While setting goals for the new year we must be specific! I must decide what I want and how I will get it or where I want to go and how I will get there. If I say I want my income to increase I must also specify how I plan to make that happen (Hint: tithing is key). If I am going to find a new job, where will I look, when will I complete my resume, how much of an increase will I expect to make, will I work two jobs for a time, how much time, etc? By increasing our income we are more likely to achieve our other goals. We should pray specifically. John 11:22 says, whatever we ask of God, He will give it to us. While He knows what we want before we even ask, He also gives us what we ask, so it seems important that we should ask specifically!

#5) Preparation: Are you prepared to receive what you’ve asked for? Sometimes I think God is not giving me what I want because He knows I am not ready for it. What can you do to prepare yourself for your future? For me, getting rid of clothes that are too big for me helps me to prepare to not gain any weight back. It tells my brain that I expect my body to stay that way or get smaller!

If God increases your income, would you be a good steward of the increase? Maybe you are not able to get the promotion at work because you have not done the appropriate training for the position. What do you need to do to get in position to receive what’s coming? Preparation is a sign of your faith that you believe you will receive what you are asking for.

#6) Visualization: Use your imagination to visualize what you want. This is something that I have been working on. I never used to have a big imagination. I was never a dreamer. I was more realistic. But now I think that is boring! God has big plans for us! He has always spoken to His people in visions. Be wise and consider the source of your vision and the motivation behind your vision. You want your dreams and plans to fall in line with what He has for you. But don’t be scared to dream BIG! Have fun and see where He leads you!

#7) Appreciation: Give thanks in all things. This is especially important when we are focused on what is not going right for us. Sometimes I have nothing to give but gratitude. Sometimes the very most important thing we can give is grace. Be gracious and say “Thank you”! It costs nothing and can lift you out of a depression. Focus your attention on things that are good! One of my favorite verses is Phil. 4:8, “Finally brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy – meditate on these things”.

#8) Education: Humility is a great virtue. There is always room for growth. I’ve discovered that the more I know about a subject, the more I discover that there is to learn. I want to be a better speaker so I am joining Toastmasters which gives me opportunities to develop speaking skills. What is it you desire to learn? Read a book or take a class this year.

#9) Documentation: We quickly lose sight of where we have been without documenting our path to where we are. I have been documenting my weight. I would say my weight loss but I have seen it go up and down and up and down. Ugh! I cannot wonder why I haven’t lost weight because the truth is I have lost weight, and gained, and lost and … There are many things we can document, our finances, our gratitudes, our days, our plans, our travels. Documenting gives us a sense of real accomplishment.

#10) Production: When my weight loss far outweighs my weight gains and I finally reach my goal I will have produced my desired outcome. My closet will be full of size 10 clothing. I will have produced victory in the weight loss arena! What things do you look forward to producing this year? Six pack abs? Your own business? A six-figure income? What are you working to achieve? All of these “tions” will help you get there! As I meditate on what I want and I am committing my plans to the Lord, He will see that I succeed! (Pro. 16:3) As we discipline ourselves to achieve our goals we will produce a harvest of blessing! (Hebrews 12:11)

#11) Minimalization: Yes! It is a word! I looked it up! Minimalism is becoming a big thing and for good reason. Reducing the material clutter in our lives somehow reduces mental and emotional clutter too. Who does not want clarity? If you haven’t already, I suggest starting with your clothing. The best way to do this is to put every article of clothing you own in a heap. One by one, hold each item and ask yourself if it gives you joy. If it doesn’t, it goes! In general, try living with as little as possible, opt out of buying new items that are not absolutely necessary. Materialism has become so prominent in our culture. Other cultures with less stuff are so much more full of joy and peace and happiness. That is to be desired!

#12) Resolution: And finally, resolve to make these “tions” a part of your daily life. Ultimately, we all want to look back at the end of our life and see that we have lived well, full, happy and meaningful lives. We have prospered in the things that matter. We grew in knowledge and love. We lived with faith and believed in ourselves and others. As Paul wrote about in 1 Cor. 13, without faith and love nothing we say or do matters. Happy New Year/ New You!

Sharing My Knowledge

One of the best ways to increase your influence in life is to share the knowledge you have with others.  One of the best ways to share your knowledge with others is to post it on a social media website.

false awakenings, truly awake.


Last night I was talking to God and He said, Tell me the story of your life.  He’s been asking me that for the last few days and I figured out finally that He was me to tell me what I want my future to look like.  So my story ended with…I finally felt I had a home.  Might sound strange.  I’ve had houses, I tried to make a home for my kids in Romania…but I always felt like it wasn’t home.  I don’t know how to explain it except to say, you can have a house but not a home.  A house is a place to live but a home is more of a feeling,

All of a sudden a strange feeling came over me and it felt like….I had a home!  Even though this isn’t my house and we are kind of “homeless” right now.  But that gives…

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Last night I dreamt I was walking on top of a building…or I assumed I was walking.  I was thinking…I have to get more control over my dreams.  I’m tired of freaking out over what’s happening, and waking up tired from them.  Now how do I do that?

Then I looked at the ladders connected to the building.  But they were missing the rungs, the steps, I’m on the top so the only way was down.  But I kept walking around the top of the building and then realized…I’m not walking, I’m riding a bike!

I stop and think…I don’t have a bike!  This is funny, it’s like I’m dreaming right now.  Then I realize I’m on top of a building, riding a bike, ladders only going down with no steps.  Then I start laughing hysterically.  I’m thinking about dreaming, while I’m dreaming, while I’m realizing it’s a dream!

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The Race Marked Out For Us

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Focused On HIM

Hebrews 12:1-2 contains the verses “and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.” Have you ever thought about what that means? God marked out a race for you.

What is this path God has chosen for us and why is it called a race? I can hear my husband saying “It’s a r-r-r-race,” rolling the r and is a quote from the movie “Rat Race” which is hilarious…but besides the point!

I believe sometimes in life if we don’t deliberately and quickly stay on and follow the path God has set for us, we can get too distracted. We see that “shiny object” offshoot that takes away from the path and we are off in another direction. These shiny objects can be people, relationships, a job, a hobby, an addiction, a ministry, or even fear.

It comforts me to know that God has a plan for…

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